Way to go Christie, you missed your counciling meeting, again, and proceeded to make up some bogus excuse in not going. I need to tattoo my appointments on my hand. That's the only way I'm going to remember things. Considering no one reads this, I was going to ask if anyone had suggestions on how to help myself remember things. Oh well.

It's friday, my dad is coming home today and I hope the tension doesn't get thick in the house tonight. I'm kind of excited to just get home from class and go lay on my bed. Again. I've been so tired lately and I don't know why. Maybe it's cause I'm staying up until 5 am. Hmm, wonder why I would be doing that?

So I'm sitting in class, I've been here for an hour, and I'm ready to get out right now. We're learning how to compose Cascading Style Sheets for webpages (CSS) and since I can't see the effing screen at the front of the class, I'm having a hard time following along. Therefore making it hard to even know whats going on. 2 more hours of a blank mind and a blank text edit sheet to go. Actually I'm doing alright, I wonder if I put up my HTML project in here, it will show up:
Here goes

January 1979

by Aaron Weiss (Mewithoutyou)

January,
1979 saw a terrible crash (and couldn't help but laugh.)
My ear pressed against the past like a glass on a wall of a house in a photograph.



My forehead no longer sweet with the holy kisses worthy of your firey lips.
I was floating in a peaceful sea 'rescued' by a sinking ship.
If I could become the servant of all - no lower place to fall. you watched me like a 10 car highway wreck with detached, vulgar curiosity. this looking
down at the tops of the hats of us passers-by from your 7th story balcony...



from such a height you missed the creatures too small for sight carry on covert conversation and the misguided insects crowned me their grasshopper king with a dance of celebration!



after years with a crown on my head I've grown
overfed, unconcerned, and comfortably numb kept busy indulging in pleasures of the wealthy (someone make me afraid of what I've become!) At the first sign
of possible trouble I turned my heels and ran (Oh, I'll never learn) my life is a cup of sugar I borrowed before time began and forgot to return,


it was a
matter of time - I always said I could see now I'm going blind, it was a matter of miserable time -- but I heard somewhere there was a cure for useless eyes?

Web Sites cross refrenced in this page:

• http://www.flickr.com/photos/sbarrax/2381680


• http://www.laugh-of-the-day.com


• http://www.hersheys.com/kisses


• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tRXO9Q8LkY


• http://frog648.deviantart.com/art/The-Sinking-57309086


• http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZueeF4g6sk&NR=1


• http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals


• http://www.nba.com/kings


• http://www.barneys.com/b/browse/category.s?categoryId=629756&CMP=KNC-Google


• http://www.forbes.com/lists/home.jhtml?passListId=10&passYear=2000&passListType=Person


• http://www.epicurious.com


• http://www.komen.org









lets see how that worked out. Alright! Heck yea, thats what I've been staring at for an hour. It really doesn't look like that in a separate browser window, but I guess thats what I get for having conflicting style sheets.
I hate coding.

What is going on right now. It's sad that I have nothing going on right now, and I'm resorting to relieve my boredom by writing more about myself. I feel like I'm being self-centered cause I'm not too interested in reading any one else's journals. Whatever, this isn't here for anyone else. Well one person, and he's all that matters. I mentioned earlier to someone that I'm actually beginning to feel better again, actually happy. I don't feel so bad right now, I think I'm just excited about the upcoming month, about next week, about everything going on right now. I feel relieved because I don't get that panic-ed feeling, the kind that when you think about stuff that makes you nervous, you just get sick. I've had that happen to me a lot the past couple of months, I absolutely hate the feeling. I just realize right now to make things even better, I need to just become un-lazy. I realize my laziness and my lack of motivation is what gets me behind in life. I get all these amazing opportunities and take far too long to take the initiative to jump start that something. Chris, you know what I'm talking about. I haven't even put together my resume. I feel like I just have way too much on my mind, and constantly forget about the important things that really matter. I'm too caught up in school and work and community service. Wait, listen to myself, that stuff is actually important. Unfortunately that stuff isn't important to me. My priorities are different, and I think we all know what those are. If you don't then ask me the next time you see me, and we'll talk about them. That is if you don't mind me talking about myself for an hour. That could get kind of lame, cause I usually do nothing but talk about my boyfriend, how lucky I am, and how I think my life is already planned out for me.
I've already written 3 entries for today, this really helps me get things off my mind. I'm definately going to continue to do this.

Honestly, this song means a lot to me right now, please read it. It's worth the time.

One Time: Cool Hand Luke

Let me tell you what he did for me,
with the weight of my worries tearing my sleeve.
I cried to my father the other night, the end of all hope.
"Show me the rope, which way to go"
As I fell asleep, he took away my worries.
He picked me up put me on his shoulders.

I could see for miles.
He showed me that the mountain I'm climbing,
is not a mountain at all,
but a gentle slope leading home.

There are mountains
towering ahead.
He says to me "These are mine.
Hold my hand, you'll be fine"

(Personal side note: It's amazing what words can do, to make you feel better and realize that God is always there. This is why I love Cool Hand Luke and MewithoutYou)

I could see for miles.
He showed me that the mountain I'm climbing,
is not a mountain at all,
but a gentle slope leading home.

"The mountains are mine"

Why in the heck did I get sick last night? Puking in front of everyone is not my idea of looking cool. But then again I don't really need to impress my friends, so I guess I really have nothing to worry about. So I gave in and started a live journal for 2 reasons.
1. to keep boredom at bay while sitting in class.
2. help my self remember things.
(alright 3 reasons) 3. to basically complain to myself about everything.
I guess this is going to be more personal rather than public, although feel free to read what I'm thinking about.
I've got a lot to write about tonight. I'm pretty awake right now for it being almost 7, I took a long nap today after working at the place I volunteer at: Matthew 25: Ministries (http://www.m25m.org) and the class that I'm in right now is unbearable (6-9 PM on Thursday), I feel like I know more than the teacher does. Unfortunately I can't work on designs because I have to follow along with class in photoshop. The computers are shit at school and don't run well with multiple psd. files. I really hope no one is actually reading this, it's probably the most obscure and boring thing to ever read.

So, I got paid today. Not as much as I thought, but enough. I put away 150.00 of it into my savings, just to keep incase things go wrong, or to just pay off my car. I've been trying to work as much as I possibly can, without going crazy. Even then I don't feel like it's enough. Maybe I need to find a higher paying job, or I can ask Megan (my manager) for a $0.50 raise. It doesn't seem like much, but in the long run, it really pays off.

Chris called me the other night, and probably told me the best news of my life. He's bussin' it soon, and told me I could go with him literally when ever I wanted and when I could. My life is complete now, no more multiple weeks of me being unbearably moody because I can't see him. Thank god for frequent flyer miles too. I've never been so excited in my life. Actually maybe I have, but whatever. A little excitement is good right now.
Speaking of frequent flyer miles, I get to go to Maryland for my 20th birthday. Which means chesapeake bay, crabs, Chris and kayaking. I hope. I'm going to bug the hell out of my dad to use the kayak. I'm pretty excited to see my family as well, I hate being so far away from them. Karee is going to be hanging out with Dustin only an hour or 2 away as well, so I've got some hang out time on my hands while im in Maryland. Not to sound lame, but I'm so excited to show Chris around the city of Annapolis, and show him all the sailboats and the Naval Academy. It's beautiful there.
I'll throw in some pictures for visual reference:























The U.S Naval Academy



Alright, I'm lame, sorry. I think it's beautiful AND I'm bored.